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From:

sleight_of_hand

I don't want to die either.

[Adachi was silent for a moment, before he let out a soft sigh.]

I don't expect anyone to forgive me for anything, whether I meant to do it or not. I don't think I'd want it anyway.

From:

damselled

You wouldn't? And why is that?

[She thinks she can see why, but...]

From:

sleight_of_hand

Because I'd never be able to tell if they were being sincere. I just... can't.

From:

damselled

Others are not to blame for that, Tohru. You are the one who utterly lacks faith in anyone who cares for you.

From:

sleight_of_hand

Yeah, well... not many people have given me a reason to believe in others.

From:

damselled

And what about Souji? Myself? This "Dojima-san" you would speak to me of?

From:

sleight_of_hand

...yeah, that would be about it.

[And even then he wondered sometimes. Or rather often. Or near constantly.]

[...he really was a damn mess.]

From:

damselled

And why, then, could you not have trusted one of us?

From:

sleight_of_hand

[Adachi paused, letting out a sigh as he thought over how to respond.]

...'cause I don't want to be let down again.

From:

damselled

... And so you hurt someone else instead.

From:

sleight_of_hand

...heh. You wanted the truth; didn't say it was gonna be a nice thing.

From:

damselled

I do declare, you must be the most idiotic, self-centered mess I've ever had the misfortune to encounter.

From:

sleight_of_hand

Sorry.

[He didn't sound that sincere.]

...do you regret meeting me?

From:

damselled

Hmph.

[Yeah, Adachi, she kinda notices that.]

Why do you ask?

From:

sleight_of_hand

Just curious.

[But his tone said he was being serious about it.]

From:

damselled

I... no.

[Sometimes, though, she wished she could.]

And you - do you regret meeting me?

From:

sleight_of_hand

[Adachi was quiet for a long moment.]

...no. I don't.

From:

damselled

I... I'm glad.

[Why did she just admit that? It wasn't as though she was ever going to trust him again, much less act on what had once been - or almost been - between them.]

From:

sleight_of_hand

[He knew she never would; that was part of what made this hurt so goddamn much. He was glad he kept this to voice now, so she couldn't see that was probably the worst thing she could have said to him.]

Well... that's all I had.

From:

damselled

... Very well.

[A moment, and then...]

Tohru, whatever has happened between us, I still do not wish you to throw yourself away.

From:

sleight_of_hand

[Adachi was quiet a moment, staring at his bracelet, before he let out a laugh.]

Well, it's not like it's going to matter soon anyway.

From:

damselled

Oh?

[Is it because he'll be going back to prison?]

From:

sleight_of_hand

Well, either the end of our time here or the end of the world is coming. Even if we win, I doubt we'll remember anything that happened here.

From:

damselled

...

[The soft, dismayed gasp she makes cannot be easily heard, but it's still there.]

From:

sleight_of_hand

Yeah... you know, I felt like I went back for a little while, right? In my head at least; couldn't remember a thing that happened here. So it's probably not going to be any different if -- when -- we get to leave.