[Adachi fell quiet for a long moment, to the point where it almost seemed like he hung up. Finally, he let out a shuddering breath, somehow keeping his voice calm.]
I... think I realized what it meant to actually let someone into your life because of you. And I didn't want to let that go, despite... everything.
[Judging by her voice, she's rather on the verge of tears. But she keeps herself from them,c despite herself.]
Had you never been able to do that before?
[She knows he's s murderer. She knows she should hang up, and never speak with him again. But she's never seen a criminal be repentant before, and it's causing her to have second thoughts.]
No... it wasn't in the plan yet. I was still on the 'get a good job' part of it; the 'get a good wife' hadn't come up yet. And dealing with others just... wasn't part of it.
[He let out a shaking breath; he hadn't been ready for this, and he felt a little sick from being so damn honest.]
It probably doesn't mean much... assuming we survive, I doubt we're going to remember any of this. But... well, I didn't want you to go to the end thinking I just wanted to kill you.
[Why did she just admit that? It wasn't as though she was ever going to trust him again, much less act on what had once been - or almost been - between them.]
[He knew she never would; that was part of what made this hurt so goddamn much. He was glad he kept this to voice now, so she couldn't see that was probably the worst thing she could have said to him.]
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I... think I realized what it meant to actually let someone into your life because of you. And I didn't want to let that go, despite... everything.
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[Judging by her voice, she's rather on the verge of tears. But she keeps herself from them,c despite herself.]
Had you never been able to do that before?
[She knows he's s murderer. She knows she should hang up, and never speak with him again. But she's never seen a criminal be repentant before, and it's causing her to have second thoughts.]
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[He let out a shaking breath; he hadn't been ready for this, and he felt a little sick from being so damn honest.]
It probably doesn't mean much... assuming we survive, I doubt we're going to remember any of this. But... well, I didn't want you to go to the end thinking I just wanted to kill you.
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[It must have been a very lonely existence, and judging from Adachi's tone of voice, Maribelle's guess was right.]
Well, then, Tohru... I do not know that I can forgive you for what occurred, but I believe you.
[She takes a deep, shaky breath before she continues.]
And... I do not wish you to simply throw yourself away.
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[Adachi was silent for a moment, before he let out a soft sigh.]
I don't expect anyone to forgive me for anything, whether I meant to do it or not. I don't think I'd want it anyway.
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[She thinks she can see why, but...]
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[And even then he wondered sometimes. Or rather often. Or near constantly.]
[...he really was a damn mess.]
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...'cause I don't want to be let down again.
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[He didn't sound that sincere.]
...do you regret meeting me?
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[Yeah, Adachi, she kinda notices that.]
Why do you ask?
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[But his tone said he was being serious about it.]
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[Sometimes, though, she wished she could.]
And you - do you regret meeting me?
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...no. I don't.
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[Why did she just admit that? It wasn't as though she was ever going to trust him again, much less act on what had once been - or almost been - between them.]
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Well... that's all I had.
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[A moment, and then...]
Tohru, whatever has happened between us, I still do not wish you to throw yourself away.
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Well, it's not like it's going to matter soon anyway.
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